I want someone who would put in the same amount of effort as me. Maybe I might go a little bit overboard when it comes to pampering you, and spoiling you, but that’s only because I really do care about you. I’m not the type to waste time and opportunity waiting for someone to make me happy. I’d rather see you happy instead. And I guess that’s why people tell me I’m too nice. I always put other people’s happiness first before my own.
Everything’s falling out of place, and I just feel like I can never be truly happy for just one day. Something always has to happen, and I’m so sick and tired of it. I seriously just need to leave. Far far away from everyone and everything. Soon, before I slowly get ripped apart by my surroundings.
That one guy that no matter how hard you try to stay away from, you can’t. The bad boy, the jerk, the asshole. That guy that always seems to be doing something wrong. The guy that your friends warn you about. But yet, you’re drawn in. The smallest things they say to you… They’re just so irresistible and you can’t help yourself but to fall in their trap every time.
I always feel like it fucks me over in the long run..
That point when you have no one to turn to and you just don’t feel like anyone gets you. Or understands you. Or even cares to pretend. Once you start keeping things to yourself, and playing it off. Once you start bottling all your emotions in. Once you stopped giving out your trust. Because in the end, the only person that does care for you is yourself. The only person that could help you is none other than yourself. But sometimes, it just feels better to just not get back up once you’ve fallen and let yourself lay, just for awhile.
That feeling when you’re just done. You’re just done with everyone and everything. You just stop trying, stop saying, stop everything. You turn your emotions off. Everything that you believed in, everything that you fought for, you just give in. You’re so exhausted at a point where you can’t even bare to lift up a finger. Emotionally drained. Now, you just feel empty.
I’m so tired of all their bullshit.
I hate opening up to people, I hate sharing my feelings out loud, and I despise talking about my past. However, if I choose to share all these with you. Consider yourself someone special. Because it takes a lot for me to share things i’d rather keep deep in my soul. Real talk..
(Source: soul-klean)
So I was talking to my guy friends today about not having a prom date because everyone already has dates and blah blah blah. They all replied with “It’s because you’re too hard to get with and your standards are too high for any guy to reach..” fml, the truth hurts.. Now no prom date. :/
